I am just going to jump right in. It has been some time since I posted in this blog; I thought sincerely about starting a new blog with a whole new name, but this blog is a perfect testament to the man I was and the road I was at tyrannically fighting against myself. It is full of plans and goals and ‘motivation’, but ultimately it is filled with self-deception. Pleae feel free to look back over my soul as you want.
In February, I nearly died. Weighing in at just north of 417 pounds, I stopped breathing and had to be intubated. Luckily, this happened while at the hospital already for a broken and split toe. 9 days later, I had a decision. Continue on the path I had been or stop always junk talking and actually do some shit about it.
Currently I am at 296 pounds and coming off of a small back step week. I have learned this week that it is very easy to let mediocrity slip back in when you lose focus even for a moment. Those individuals like Mia Hamm, Michael Jordan, Warren Buffet, Bill Clinton, Jack Donaghy, Kermit the frog and the list goes on and on, stay on focus nearly 100 % of the time, never losing track of what they want and are willing to sacrifice all else to get there.
I am not there, yet – But I am working at it, so I put this little slip back to bed and I start today, Father’s Day, with a Goddess blessing for all fathers and people who struggle; may joy find you today and may it manifest in your thought, word and deed one hundred fold. Thanks dad, for everything you are and everything you taught me, sorry it took 35 years to sink in.
Peace my friends, peace and love.