The One Where I am Hurrying (35 / 100)

Fine line between crazy and sexy

Fine line between crazy and sexy

Here again, I find myself five minutes to midnight, barely waking up to post.  Short and sweet like me, Autumn and Danny Devito tonight.  Keep thinking good thoughts, sharing that positive energy and forgive me my near miss, and those scary, scary ass eyes.

Namaste, friends.


The One Where I am Loving (34 / 35)

Pardon me sir, is that a doodie on your upper lip?

Pardon me sir, is that a doodie on your upper lip?

The woman in this picture is my wife, I have had two before her, but she is the one.  Today is her birthday, so we will not mention the other two again.  In its strictest measure this picture is still a perfect part of my Weightloss 365 project.

This has been and always will be one of my favorite photos of us.  We had known each other for about 2 months and it was shortly after this when I knew I was in love with her, and four months later I would very nearly lose her except I was crafty enough to get her over to my house one last time and touch her face.  It made her cry and we decided we were not over.

About ten months after this picture, I ask her to marry me.  Ten months and a week after this picture, we found out we would be welcoming a gummy into the house.  And it was thirteen months and three days later that I would marry her.

This picture captures us as we want to be, full of mirth, activity and fun.  Sure we have a baby – but we have weathered the first year and now she can be baby sat.  This captured the fun we had at Insurgo Theater which has unfortunately folded with most of the troupe going into the wind or players at Cockroach Theater.

We read about a group of folks who took pictures of themselves at various places with mustaches on sticks, we still have the mustaches.  Perhaps we should pull them out again soon.

Amanda has seen me on my way down in weight, meeting me when I was about 310 pounds all the way down to the runner at 245 pounds and now unfortunately, at my worst, back up to 355 pounds.  That is twenty-five pounds from where I started this nastiness seven months before this picture was taken.

I am looking at her now, on her thirty-fourth  twenty-ninth birthday by the glow of computer light, with our baby between us as we post blogs.  Together separately, she smiles at me from time to time and mouths “I love you” and my heart skips a beat – she is my best friend, my wife, my lover, mother of my children both biological and by marriage.  She has her own goals and dreams and aspirations but has always been and still is my biggest cheerleader.  I do not even have the words to convey how much she inspires in me the desire to be damn near perfect, because she has never asked me to be.

I love her more today than I did two months after this picture was taken, I will love her more even tomorrow.  And even more later.  My biggest goal for this year, if I can give back to her anything is on December fourth of this year, is to be lighter than the man in this picture, with the spark back in my eye and pulling her along on some stupid adventure, with the mustaches,

Happy birthday my love.


The One Where I am all Wet (28 / 365)

chug, chug, chug!

chug, chug, chug!

 I am trying very hard to give up soda, but it is addictive not unlike 90% of the things that are bad for you.  Funny thing is, I love me some ice cold water, the colder the better.  I like the flavor and the texture. Yes, water has texture (Or else there would not be any turgor pressure, jeez).  I try to get at least 128 ounces of water in daily.  As a diabetic it is crucial to process the nutrients and chemicals my body already has problems with.

Here are some other benefits of water you may or may not know:

1 – It is the bases of your sweat which is a natural detox.  Sweating, in the long run, clears your skin and pores, water assists with this.
2 – Drinking a glass of water first thing in the morning is better than coffee at waking you up – it energizes your mind and your body.
3 – It is a natural joint lubricant
4 – Feeling tired in the middle of the day, go get some water, it will stimulate your sluggishness and you will feel refreshed.
5-Headache relief.  A lot of headaches are chemical reactions in our body, sometimes and more often than not, by things we bring into our bodies, water will hydrate our cells causing them to be pliable as well as detox the chemicals and assist in relieving that nasty headache

So there you go, 5 things you may or may not know about the benefit of 8 glasses a day.




The One on the Bike (25 / 365)

Lifestyle Stationary Bike

Lifestyle Stationary Bike, my home this morning

The gym parking lot was very full today, what 115° outside and all, I can understand this – and it was mid-day on a Sunday, when my 24 Hour Fitness sees a normal flow of people.  However, when I went in, it was eerily dead except for the yoga class that was beginning.  I love cycling, but I have gained enough weight back that I have to lose some to get back on my mountain bike, I feel, so being able to work out on the cycles indoors is a real plus.

This was my home for 30 minutes, I had planned 45, but damn – I just couldn’t deliver, maybe my nutrition plan for the day failed me, I still felt bloated a bit from the 4 pancakes I had for breakfast (kind of a Sunday tradition).  Or maybe it was my head messing with me, either way it has to be figured out.  I am sincerely thinking about going back and giving it another 110%.

Tomorrow is MOTIVATION MONDAY, so I will think up a person in my world that has inspired or motivated me to talk about.  until then my friends, enjoy your Sunday.  Mark, my friend and father-in-law, happy birthday and may you feel the strength and love of those around you, you have enriched ours with love.


The One With the Fresh Fade (24 / 365)

I wish I was a little bit taller, I wish I was a baller

I wish I was a little bit taller, I wish I was a baller

A face only a mother could love, or someone with vision problems.  Actually, this is my favorite picture of myself out of all 24 so far.  Why?  Well, I am still shirtless, but I DO believe two things; First, I have thinned a LITTLE in the face and that is due to my mediocre work up until now.  like my post yesterday said, though, now comes the hard part, emotionally I am UP, so now to ride it out.

Second thing i like?  I cut my own hair and I think it looks bad ass, I clean up well.  No Flowbie, no vacusuck, just Mike and an industrial razor, hells to the yes.  I thought about going all the way, but then I’d look like fester.  I try to conceive of a rock and roll haircut and grow it out, but it gets to a point where I cannot stand it, and since my usual $22.00 + tip at SportsClip is out this week, I took it upon myself to cut me.  Yes, there are  a lot of uneven parts Amanda will clean up, and it has been 30 years since I last cut my own hair, but like this blog says, dream big.

I believed I could cut my own hair, I executed through vision and gut, and really, I could show up to work Monday and people would notice that I was not so shaggy.   Good job Mike.

Now, if I can harness this same good feel on the bike tomorrow morning at 24 Hour Fitness.

Truly, and lastly, a thank you to all the folks coming out and following or liking my blog.  This is a year-long journey and we have a road ahead, but you keep me coming back every day.  Tomorrow is a day I am going to conquer.  You too, conquer and own the day and your own self NOW, Namaste.

Have you ever cut your own hair?  What were the results?

The One You’re Gonna Wanna Keep (23 / 365)

Ponderous man, Very  ponderous

Ponderous man, Very ponderous

…Told you this would be wierd.

This is the one!  Keep this photo as a keepsake of a “I knew him when”. Don’t get me wrong, i will not be getting famous anytime soon, but this is the last picture of me accepting pain, failure and the lies I tell myself daily that I am not good enough.  The descent or downward spiral is over, now I am back.

I had expected this to start earlier in my pic-a-day process, i knew it would catch on to me, i just had to have faith.  I don’t even think Amanda really understood why I seemed so voracious to copy her pic-a-day, but I saw something in that idea that could help me.  I knew that if i could post positive pieces with pictures that along the way, a mental transformation would begin and i would be back to the place I was in 2010 where I began the original weightloss.

You have no idea how good it feels to be ridding myself of these shackles that I put in place.  I think EVERYONE will slowly start to see a difference, and you will see it here also in the pics, in the posts and in the love.  Namaste.